6 months ago

My stupid uncontrollable emotions just fucked up my entire day cuz I 'looked' mad when some of the friends in my group talked to other people, when I wasn't mad, but now I am cause my bestie had to question me about it like it was a fucking problem


Like I already know I'm a fucking problem thanks for telling me! I'm glad that just one wrong look results in me getting questioned, what kind friends I have!

This is why I fucking hate myself, I'm so attached to my bestie for no fucking reason and last week that caused her to interigate me and I had to tell her I don't like her cause I don't like her like that, although at the same time I'm attached to her like a stupid fucking puppy.

So now I distance myself and something else is the problem.

I fucking hate this shit! I just wanna fucking go be alone during lunch BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE OF MY STUPID FUCKING STALKER!!!!

I have other groups too, but if I don't hang out with them for awhile I'm sure I'll be questioned AGAIN!!!!

And yes I am talking mainly about my irl bestie, she has her own things going on and it's not her fault she does this, but it just makes it obvious that no one understands me, nor will they ever. Cause if I were to explain myself fully she'd hate me... And either way I can't dump that on her rn cause she's taking a break from being the therapist friend...

I'm just... I'm done with life right now, especially since earlier before that some random ass kid made it seem like the end of the world cause I didn't seem saddened by the pope dying.

LIKE SORRY I CAN'T FUCKING EXPRESS MY SADNESS OR ANY EMOTION PROPERLY!!!

I'm just.... I gotta go.... I'll see you guys later, I might do the reveal, might not, if I don't then I guess it's my fault and I should grow the fuck up... Start paying rent to my dad or some shit since he wants to joke about that so much....

Anyways... Later....



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