I have to confess something.

I've said bad things towards the mother of one of my friends. The mother was like being a bit strict, only a little bit, nothing to worry about, and i wanted to say that she was being a bit strict and that's it.

But i was messed up and instead of saying that, i insulted her calling her a whore. I just wanted to say like a joke to cheer things up. Why the fuck did i said that? I should have said less offensive insults.

And that's not all. One of my friends has a cousin who was being annoying. She was being annoying, nothing else. And what did i said about that? "Punch her". I should not have said that. I wanted to say something else to cheer things up.

Why i thought it would be funny to say that? ¡SOY UNA MIERDA DE PERSONA! I do not expect to be forgiven, i don't deserve to be forgiven. What the fuck is wrong with me? I deserve to be hated. Why am i not cancelled yet!? I hate myself. ¿Por que no estoy muerto? Necesito cambiar. Haré lo posible por cambiar.

Y voy a intentar no suicidarme.