Whats the point in creating anything if half this community hates me?

If i cant tell if even my few friends like or care about me anymore

If i cant even show anyonr my work

If everything i put out just gets degraded and shamed and put into an endless loop of controversy?

I want to create experiences

Yet if 50% of my "fanbase" dont even enjoy what i make

What point is there to even trying to make anything?

To get laughed at constantly?

To get constant death threats?

To have to argue how pointless a drama is someone starts of me?

To have big influencers constantly "call me out" and send their little goons after me?

I love making games still but honestly, moving forwards im going to either keep them to myself, or just stop entirely.

Doesnt help i dont actually have my friends anymore.

Sorry, but im too tired of all of this.

Ive got already a shit ton of stuff i have to battle and deal with and push through every single day.

Im so tired.