✦ UPDATE ✦

Somewhere along the way my whole demeanor changed without me realising it.

I used to constantly reach out to random people online because I thought being connected to people would stop that feeling of loneliness sitting in the background all the time. Discord, Game Jolt, random conversations, random people.

Then one day it just stopped mattering.

Not in a depressing way either. I genuinely started feeling better.

Random conversations started feeling empty + I realised most people really didn’t have any effect on me at all. Slowly I stopped forcing connections, stopped caring about keeping every conversation alive, + stopped feeling attached to people that could disappear tomorrow and change absolutely nothing in my life.

And somehow that made me calmer instead of going into a deeper sense of depression feeling worse, y’a feel me?

Muchhh more comfortable :3

PS. My lil bro may have done shit on my account 😭 I left it open and he took that as an open door to do random shiit, so if anything happened that wasn’t like me, just know it probably wasn’t me.