i use picrew as a reference and other images i find online because i have Aphantasia, Aphantasia is a phenomenon in which people are unable to visualize imagery. While most people are able to conjure an image of a scene or face in their minds, people with aphantasia cannot. Imagine that it is a warm summer day and you are sitting on the side of a swimming pool. The sun is shining down and there are children laughing and splashing in the water. What sort of images do you see in your mind as you think about this scene? you can probably imagine it. i cant so i have a hard time making my own art. i can but its difficult. i never tried to hide the fact that i used a reference i have been accused of art theft but i dont like people who do that. i try but the art never turns out well. so please stop accusing me of this thankyou.

https://aphantasia.com/what-is-aphantasia/