Idk why but I feel like my online friends get me more, they understand me, they listen to me, they just get me. My irl friends don't, they don't care, I'm just the back up friend, I'm just the friend no one would miss. I'm scared to tell my problems to people bc ik someone has it worse. I keep comparing myself to other people and I can't stop, my own cousins don't like me; my Aunt and grandma think I'm to dumb to do stuff. I'm sacred. I barry my face/ thoughts into my phone bc ik people online will understand me, but I'm to afraid to talk, to afraid show people who I am, to afraid to even do anything. My two friends that I want to talk to them about my problems I can't. I don't want to make it worse, I'm afraid to talk to my idol bc no matter what I say I hurt their feelings. When I try to vent everyone thinks I'm complaining but I'm not.

I'm sacred...