Today was very special..

At this particular moment I am writing this I am trying to calm my rage building inside of me.

Here's a context of what's happening. My sister is ungrateful and she is selfish of her own image and that was a very difficult part for me and my mother. At 20:40 I was at my bedroom playing until i heard my sister screaming because I ate the rest of her pizza which I did (she barely eats, and when she does she eats 2 slice of pizza then leave and I thought it was done) at first it didn't bother me to be screamed until she started to threaten me and to insult me and I instantly lost my mind and ran upstairs consumed by the sudden rage and despair of my constant daily problems. Once I went upstairs my mother tried to calm me but my sister taunted me even more. As I tried to calm myself I was totally done and made my mother trip out of her chair and yank my sister's hair, wiping the confident attitude out of the way.

I am very hurt deep inside because I can't believe I hurted my mother. Something I would never do and it prooves my problems change my personality and my bitterness. I am desperated and I want to fling out of my home because I'm so desesperate to make out in life and be normal. But the constant taunting of being called different drag me back into the darkness. I really regret what i did. I let my anger consumed me. It's unforgiving I am aware. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost...