Anything I did about 2-half years ago up until pretty much a year ago. I’ve changed. I’m trying to improve to not still be seen as this shitty guy who’s once almost ruined someone’s summer over a fucking vent I can’t handle.

Or how once I never knew an ex friend did some weird stuff & denied the allegations because of not having the balls to be involved with the situation because I’m an absolute fucking whimp.

Or how I once had a gooning phase of this stupid FNIA character for shits & giggles. Then ending up being a dick towards people because my titty art is a horrible idea. That’s what this kind of shit does to you (mostly if doing it publicly). Which is why I stepped out of it before it even got worse for me.

OR HOW I once acknowledged this 10 year old Sonic.EXE fan who keeps trolling me when I could’ve just literally ignored him. Yes we can always make fun of him for trying to cancel me in the most laughable ways. But I can’t just take him so seriously to the point where I say: “Guys. This kid is doing some illegal bad stuff. Please gather a whole fucking military of internet friends to get rid of him.” This is why I don’t even ask to ban these people because, most of the time they admit to their mistakes & I just don’t double down like how I did way back. So it’s not that serious anymore.

To me I think this is why my GamePage died because people still get reminded of how I was back then & then think of me so differently. Stuff I did back then was worse than me being just a simple overwhelmed dickhead because of struggling with suicidal thoughts & depressive episodes no matter how much I look at myself trying to regain control & happy thoughts.

I just hope for an understanding. Moving forward, I want to just be known differently. I’m about to be 18 & moving on from how things were before on GameJolt.

I try to stay out of shit because of how much it would worsen my depression. I rather not be the same as I was before. I wanted to speak out about this because I feel like I’ve been less important all from being an absolute pussy of a person in the past. I always do what’s best to man up in a situation & face reality when I make a simple mistake & own up to it. Like making this post here.

So to put it simply. I am super sorry for anyone who I bothered, hurt or just crash out at in the past because I’m a buffoon. Now we can all put this in the past & now move forward like how we should.

Anyways. I’m gonna go shit. And continue working on my games & school. 👍