I don't know if I've mentioned it enough on here, but I have heavy ocd and anxiety. Though to the untrained eye I may not have made it clear, I've struggled with it my entire time of being on here, on youtube, on discord. It's the reason why I make alot of games, get stressed, and stop the games. It's the reason why I ghost people so much. It's the reason I feel anxious on youtube and like I have to upload things I like constantly or else it won't matter what I like.

I've taken alot of time recently to just stop doing everything. To just sit down, enjoy playing games myself without worrying about nailing my interests into everyone's heads. Focus on my life and be in the moment instead of what video i'm gonna upload the next day or when the hell I'm gonna work on a game again. They're nice. Very, very nice.

But then, my anxiety flairs up again. "I have to upload a video on this now, people need to know what I like!" or "This youtuber needs to have the same opinions as me!" or "People don't care about my game!". Thoughts like these start pouring into my head. I can stop them, but they always come back. It doesn't help that just from seeing something related, those thoughts flair up again without fail. And then when im anxious, everything just sets me off so easily and it gets worse.

I've had alot of fun, but I need to back off, atleast for a bit. Lately, everything has just become a set off for me. For some examples, i feel like my run in fnaw is fizzling out, and everyone would much rather see content from someone else like jeb_yoshi, which is fine, many fnaw games coming out look way better than mine. He and others deserves the attention way more. Along with that, I've pretty much backed myself into a corner.

Everything people want to see from is fnaw. I can't do anything else because nobody bats an eye. Look, I like fnaw, but jesus I don't want the thing to be my entire character. It's disheartening. When I want to upload on my channel, it has to be either fnaf related, rarely fnf related, or a stupid meme. It's just not fun when I'm limited to what I can upload, but that's how youtubing works i guess.

To top it off I don't even want to work on cabin anymore, I just can't muster up the motivation anymore. I just want to get away from fnaw and making content as a whole right now. Just enjoy games on my own, relax, progress through my real life.

So, here's what's happening.

Cabin Chapter 2 is NOT CANCELLED. Most likely I will find some other decent coder to pick up the game and finish it. If I can't, I'll force myself to work on it. You won't get anymore information on it sadly, as I really would like to distance myself at this time.

No content will be uploaded to my main channel for a while. There may still be uploads on my 2nd channel, but with the latest video reception on there it's uncertain. There might be community posts still.

I will still post on gamejolt. I enjoy just making simple posts showing my achievements and progress on games, and of course posting silly things like custom memes. So, why not do that here more often? I plan to make a new channel on our community where I post just that. It's more relaxing than worrying about youtube reception. These will of course also be posted on discord. I'll still be as active as I can on discord, but expect me to still not respond to DMs, sorry if me not responding disappoints you, just remember it is nothing against you.

If the news upsets you, I'm sorry but my personal mental health matters more, especially regarding the issues I have. Your mental health matters too, so to everyone reading, remember you can take breaks as well. When you can, take a moment to disregard the internet and take a breather. As life goes on I am starting to realize that more. I'm realizing alot of things more. Take care of yourselves, you matter just as much as anyone. ❤

And please, no goofy meme comments. I'm fine with jokes, but this post is intended to be serious, seeing jokey haha comments on posts like these is annoying. Learn when its okay to joke and when it isn't.

Thank you for reading. And don't worry about me for those who do.