why should i even try to be happy anymore

how can i even try after going through fucking 3 semesters (the first one almost ruined me) all for a summer holiday that amounted to fucking nothing

hell, why does the teachers have to be shit? ever since i came to this school on fifth grade i’ve been getting bullied non-stop, and the teachers have no problem but when *I* defend myself its a warcrime?? man, people are such fucking dickheads, bro. cant even laugh or breathe without one of the students yelling “EAT SHIT!” in arabic. god, didnt know people can be huge uneducated animals

i seriously wanna drop out but i cant, because well, no shit my parents are authoritarian styled parents they need me to study well and not be an unemployed bitch

sighhh i guess ill just live through it. its my last year in secondary school, so here goes nothing, I guess.