OMGGGG GUYSS I ACTUALLY CANT ANYMORE IM LOSING MY MIND 😭😭😭 LIKE WHY DOES THIS BOY HAVE THIS EFFECT ON ME ACTUALLY SOMEONE EXPLAIN BC I DONT GET IT HOW CAN ONE PERSON MAKE MY WHOLE MOOD CHANGE SO FAST??? I CAN BE FEELING BORED OR SAD OR OVERTHINKING OR JUST DOING RANDOM STUFF AND THEN I SEE HIS NAME POP UP OR HE JOINS ME AND SUDDENLY EVERYTHING FEELS DIFFERENT NO BC WHY DOES MY HEART DO THAT STUPID THING EVERY TIME HE TEXTS ME ITS SO EMBARRASING 😭 I TRY SO HARD TO ACT NORMAL AND NONCHALANT LIKE “oh yeah whatever” BUT INSIDE IM LITERALLY PANICKING AND INTERNALLY SCREAMING AND THE WORST PART IS HE PROBABLY DOESNT EVEN REALIZE WHAT HIS ATTENTION DOES TO ME LIKE ONE MESSAGE ONE SINGLE MESSAGE THATS ALL IT TAKES FOR ME TO START SMILING AT MY SCREEN LIKE AN ABSOLUTE IDIOT I WAS LITERALLY MINDING MY OWN BUSINESSS AND THEN HE TEXTED AND MY BRAIN JUST WENT ????? HELLO???? EXCUSE ME???? WHY AM I BLUSHING OVER PIXELS RN 😭 YES HES MY Roblox BF IDC IDC IDC SAY WHAT U WANT LAUGH IF U WANT JUDGE ME IF U WANT I DONT EVEN CARE BC HE GENUINELY MAKES ME SO HAPPY SOMETIMES AND THATS ALL I CARE ABT LIKE ITS NOT EVEN JUST BIG THINGS ITS THE SMALL THINGS TOO WHICH MAKES IT WORSE THE WAY HE TYPES THE WAY HE JOKES THE RANDOM STUPID THINGS HE SAYS THE WAY HE JOINS ME THE WAY HE REACTS TO STUFF EVEN WHEN HES BEING DUMB OR ANNOYING I STILL END UP SMILING BC ITS HIM 😭 AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HIS ATTENTION BC WHY DOES HIS ATTENTION FEEL LIKE A REWARD OR SOMETHING WHY DOES MY BRAIN CARE THIS MUCH LIKE HE TALKS TO ME FOR A BIT AND SUDDENLY IM GIGGLING KICKING MY FEET STARING AT THE CHAT REREADING MESSAGES LIKE A LOSER YES BTW I REREAD OUR CHATS IM ADMITTING IT I GO BACK AND READ OLD MSGS SOMETIMES BC THEY MAKE ME HAPPY CALL ME DELUSIONAL IDC AND ITS SO BAD BC I NOTICE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM TOO LIKE ACTUALLY EVERYTHING STUFF HE PROBABLY DOESNT EVEN REALIZE ABOUT HIMSELF I NOTICE HOW HE TYPES CERTAIN WORDS I NOTICE HIS JOKES I NOTICE HIS TONE I NOTICE WHEN HES MORE TALKATIVE I NOTICE WHEN HES QUIETER I NOTICE WHEN SOMETHING FEELS OFF WHY DOES MY BRAIN STORE ALL OF THIS LIKE HELLO ITS ACTUALLY INSANE HOW MUCH SPACE HE TAKES UP IN MY HEAD LIKE WHY AM I THINKING ABOUT HIM THIS MUCH WHY DO I CARE THIS MUCH WHY AM I THIS ATTACHED 😭 WHEN HES ONLINE I NOTICE WHEN HE JOINS ME I NOTICE WHEN HE LEAVES I NOTICE WHEN HES GONE LONGER THAN USUAL I NOTICE AND SOMETIMES IF HE TAKES LONG TO REPLY I TRY NOT TO OVERTHINK BUT MY BRAIN STARTS DOING THAT THING AGAIN LIKE DID I SAY SOMETHING WRONG IS HE MAD AM I ANNOYING DOES HE NOT WANNA TALK AND I HATE THAT I OVERTHINK SO MUCH BUT I DO ITS LIKE MY BRAIN REFUSES TO CHILL FOR FIVE SECONDS AND THE THING IS HE MAKES ME FEEL SO MANY THINGS AT ONCE ITS ACTUALLY CRAZY HAPPY NERVOUS EXCITED SHY COMFORTABLE SAFE SOMETIMES ALL AT THE SAME TIME WHICH SHOULDNT EVEN BE POSSIBLE BUT APPARENTLY IT IS I ACT ALL COOL SOMETIMES BUT TRUTHFULLY IM SO BAD AT HIDING HOW MUCH I CARE LIKE I WANNA PLAY IT COOL BUT INSIDE IM JUST A MESS A VERY VERY DOWN BAD MESS NO BC WHY AM I ACTUALLY THIS DOWN BAD SOMEONE HELP I SWEAR HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH HE AFFECTS ME HE CAN LITERALLY JUST EXIST AND IM ALR SMILING THATS SO EMBARRASING TO ADMIT BUT ITS TRUE ANYWAYS I JUST NEEDED TO SCREAM BC I LIKE THIS IDIOT SO SO SO MUCH AND ITS ACTUALLY DRIVING ME INSANE 😭😭😭 SEND HELP OR DONT IDC IM GONNA KEEP LIKING HIM ANYWAY. ILY @ImCou