I dont know what i was thinking leaving my child behind

now i suffer the curse and now i am blind

with all this anger, guilt, and sadness coming to haunt me forever

i can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river

is this revenge i'm seeking, or seeking someone to avenge me?

stuck in my own paradox i wanna set myself free

maybe i should chase and find before they try to stop it

it wont be long before i become the puppet

it's been so long since i last have seen my son lost to this monster, to the man behind the slaughter, since you've been gone i've been singing this stupid song so i could ponder the sanity of your mother

i wish i lived in the present with the gift of my past mistakes

but the future keeps lurking in like a pack of snakes

your sweet little eyes, your little smile's all i remember

those fuzzy memories mess with my temper

justification is killing me, but killing isn't justified

what happened to my son? i'm terrified

it lingers in my mind and the thought keeps on getting bigger

i'm sorry my sweet baby i wish i'd been there

it's been so long since i last have seen my son lost to this monster, to the man behind the slaughter, since you've been gone i've been singing this stupid song so i could ponder the sanity of your mother

please like this took ages to write