11 days ago

Revealing Myself: I am Evan Freeman


As of now, you have known this nameless and blank account as FoxyPirateFox4143. However, today starting from now, that mask comes off. I reveal my true identity now. My identity is Evan Freeman, best friend of Cinema Hanwil, former co-director of Five Nights at Hanwil's, and the creator of Five Nights at Wario's Redone.

4 years ago, my account was banned because of something I said against Kirby610. I was desperate prove my side of the story even though the only evidence of it, or rather the exchange itself, was deleted along with my account. Although my side and experience is believable now because of Kirby's status today, it in no way justifies what I did and how I acted back then. I created alts to get back at him, and did anything to "prove" that he was wrong. These moments I consider to be my lowest point. I was fighting a war I could never win, because I already had lost, and for a good reason too. Because of what I said to him. Even if my point was proved that he started it, it didn't at all justify what I said in that message. I was verbally violent, destructive, and hateful in my words. Moreover, my ideology and the reason starting that exchange was incredibly stupid and naive, so I should have seen why he would get irritated at me for it. Back then, I was a petty, revenge obsessed, pathetic sore loser brat who couldn't stand losing.

After that, I still hadn't changed, learned or matured from this experience. There was a situation where I acted clingy, and just obnoxious and annoying to be with in a certain server. I failed to see my own impression, way of talking, and what others expereinced from me. One of my biggest mistakes was trying to get the attention of someone more famous than me, and trying to talk to them. I had no consideration at all for how annoying I was to them. I also had a tendency to show disdain over the smallest sarcastic remarks. Then, when others showed dislike over me at this behavior, I did nothing to make it better and confronted it with anger. It got to a point where I repeated the same mistake again: saying something violent. This led to my eventual expulsion. I thought I did nothing wrong back then. Looking back now... it's amazing how ignorant and inconsiderate I was to my own actions. I even dragged this situation into other communities and made things troublesome for everyone there. To anyone that still remembers those times and is reading this, I'm sorry for how I acted, and what you had to experience from me.

Sometimes when I remember all of what I did before, I fear for how much people are out for me. Things have changed, though, and now I realize why it is for the best to let go of some pointless situations. Anger and sensitivity have always been my biggest problem when handling situations, but it was never an excuse to not try to control it. There was a recent situation where I got bashed the same way as before, but only this time I did nothing wrong. However, even though your emotions may not always agree with it, the most honorable thing to do in a situation is to move on. This especially applies to situations that don't matter as much as your emotions tell you. It took me quite a while to learn all of this, but let's not dwell on the past. Even though I haven't been motivated much on it these days, I'm still looking forward to providing good content for all of you.



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