For context, today was my band concert for school and I haven't practiced my songs since I've had bruised ribs for weeks. I swear this isn't rage bait.
I was at my locker, trying to get my trumpet when someone called me by my dead name. I corrected them and they just told me that they used because they don't respect me. I tried to tell them that my identity isn't just some privilege to take away if they so choose, but they'd already walked away.
Later, as I was trying to go, this homophobe who's been dead-naming me for months ran up behind me and yelling "Hi, (dead name)!" over and over. TWICE. Now, I've tried everything short of throwing hands to get him to stop, so I just snapped. I swung my trumpet case at him and stopped right before I hit him and just yelled at him to back off. Both times he just retreated back to his friend group as they laughed at my reactions.
Last thing, the concert. Prior to the concert I had grabbed my sheet music for only one song since my teacher told me that I could fake playing my part for the others due to my ribs if it hurt too much (I was playing tambourine on the song I grabbed). Right before I left to go tp the concert I took two Advil. Besides one of my valves being stuck and my clothes being super uncomfortable since I was wearing new clothes, my biggest problem was that the Advil somehow didn't stop the pain.
So yeah, that was my day. yaaay...
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