In my restless dreams

I see that town

Silent Hill

You promised me you'd take me

There again someday

But you never did

Well, I'm alone there now

In our 'special place'

Waiting for you

Waiting for you to

Come to see me

But you never do

And so I wait, wrapped in my

Cocoon of pain and loneliness

I know I've done a terrible

Thing to you. Something you'll

Never forgive me for

I wish I could change

That, but I can't

I feel so pathetic and ugly

Laying here, waiting for you

Every day I stare up at the cracks

In the ceiling and all I can think

About is how unfair it all is

The doctor came today

He told me I could go

Home for a short stay

It's not that I'm getting better

It's just that this may be

My last chance

I think you know what I mean

Even so, I'm glad to be coming

Home. I've missed you terribly

But I'm afraid, James

I'm afraid you don't really

Want me to come home

Whenever you come see me

I can tell how hard it is on you

I don't know if you

Hate me or pity me

Or maybe I just disgust you

I'm sorry about that

When I first learned that

I was going to die, I just

Didn't want to accept it

I was so angry all the time and I

Struck out at everyone I loved most

Especially you, James

That's why I understand

If you do hate me

But I want you to

Know this, James

I'll always love you

Even though our life together had

To end like this, I still wouldn't

Trade it for the world. We had

Some wonderful years together

Well, this letter has gone on

Too long, so I'll say goodbye