Small Update, Change of plans and Hopeless Devotion.

TheLogicalFounder @TheLogicalFounder

3 months ago

Small Update, Change of plans and Hopeless Devotion.

Update on my Life

I'll be straight forward with you all.

These past few months, I experienced a massive burn out for coding in Godot and making engines.

Whenever i would open my game engine, I would just write some lines of code, stare at it and say "It's not good enough", and then I'd go back to doom-scrolling somewhere on Youtube or Instagram.

I tried various ways to "fix" this burn out. I tried taking a break, spend time in some other ways, play more videogames and so on, but that didn't work at all.

I also tried to talk about this problem with other people, i appreciated their support but they all kept saying the same things like:

"It's normal, you'll get out of it eventually.", or "You just need a break man!"

Which is frustrating to hear over and over since I haven't done anything these months. The only concrete coding progress i've only done was working on some Turbowarp fangames for a couple of teams (Which fun fact, I HATE USING TURBOWARP).

Plus, I've been dealing with a lot of IRL projects, mostly from school, requiring lots of my game-development skills, coding skills, and a lot of my time.

Change of Plans

Where I'm getting with this?

I've been thinking a lot about my journey and my role as a coder in the Community, I've met a lot of people, made lots of friends, lost some and gained new abilities such as coding and a bit of writing.

But at the same time, I feel like I lost a part of myself, something that would keep me going on, discover new things and keep practicing to keep getting better. I feel like I've lost myself in some way.

So, I've come to the conclusion that I should decide to spend my time in a more productive manner, that I should spend time in useful things, mostly being getting better at coding, managing daily tasks, focusing on school, getting better at life you know?

To put it simply, I'll be retiring off some Undertale Fangames
teams indefintely.

This might be seen as an shitty move, but to be honest, It's for the best. I shouldn't always say yes to joining a team, because having a team member that does absolutely nothing (like me sometimes),
It's really frustrating and it can make you come off as a slacker.

And trust me, this has happened way too many times, and i don't wanna be a slacker or be seen as one.

For obvious reasons, I won't say from which teams I'll leave, but be warned that from now on, I'll be very selective and strict on which teams I'll join.

I will mainly help some friends on the team or projects that I believe are a good investment to participate in and to which I am sure I can contribute. I know this will make some people mad because of this choice, and I already want to apologize for all of this, but I think it's for the best of my mental health.

Hopeless Devotion

My burn-out has also affected one of my main projects, LogicalTale: Hopeless Devotion.

Progress is going slow, we are taking our time, but we are lacking of some essential team members, mostly Spriters (that also includes Tilesets aritists), and Artists.