So, around 2~ years ago, a bit less, I had made a post on hear about me self harming, along with said pic. Now, at the time I posted that, I felt that I was hopeless, that I'd end up not reaching my next birthday. But, obviously, I was wrong, I did end up getting past all that, and I did end up being alright.

(OLD PICTURE BELOW THIS DO NOT LOOK AT IT IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE TO SELF HARM PICTURES)

Now, the reason for me doing this was relatively simple: I hated how I looked. I hated the fact I didn't look how I wanted. Gender dsyphoria is a bitch, sadly.

And, I still don't pass. Like, at all, but the reason I stopped self harming is because I'm in a better place mentally. I still look, and sound, like a cis guy, but because I have people around me who don't mind calling me she/her despite that, I don't feel the need to do so.

I felt hopeless at the time, like I'd never reach the time where I could start transitioning, and that I was 'faking it for attention' (Which, btw, loads of trans people, and queer people in general, do feel like).
I thought that sometime soon, I'd figure out I wasn't trans.

But yeah, obviously, I am. I still know I'm trans, I went through LOADS of pronouns just to see what worked (If you remember, I had used they/them and had a feel on how the lable enby made me feel, but I ended up finding out that I was happiest using she/her.

Theres no shame at all in trying out new pronouns, or using lables you aren't 100% certain of just yet. Same with being bisexual, some people feel that because they're only attracted to a small amount of the same gender, they're just straight. Even if you are only attracted to ONE type of the same sex, you're still bi.

There is absolutely zero shame in not only trying out new identities, but also asking for help. When I first came out, I was, infact, ashamed to ask for help, ashamed to say that I'm not okay, that I need help and I need therapy.

But, of course, I did get past that, and I went to therapy. It did help, and since then, I haven't been self harming. Therapy isn't for EVERYONE, but I heavily suggest giving it a try if you can. And, also, find the right therapist for you. Some therapists? Absolute dicks, others are good for you.

Some people like having more blunt and straight-to-the point, some more soft-spoken ones that aren't as blunt. Literally, no shame in asking for a new therapist if the one you got aint your thing.

It's all for YOUR help.
Aslong as you're respectful to the therapist, because of course, they're only trying to help you, then theres no problem.

Side note: With passing, you probably pass beter than you think you do. I thought I passed HORRIBLY when I wore a mask, and had my hair long, but some guy assumed I was a cis girl before I spoke.
So, just.. stick it out, it is worth it, and things DO get better, eventually. It takes a while, longer for other people, but it does.

And, now, I got lucky, I can recognise that well, especially now that I've seen other people with less supporting parents, or without safe circles. But, if you don't have people in your circle that are safe now, then find them. Don't be afraid to cut people off if they aren't good for you, if you can that is. And, don't feel pressured to come out early if your loved ones won't take it well. That's a mistake that somebody I know (Not saying a name, as they ARE on gamejolt.) made before.

BUT ANYWAYS, this is made purely to make other people feel better, or at least try my best to, so please, if you have read this far, or even haven't, stay safe, and you are cared for, trust me, you are. People will notice if you're gone, even if you don't think so. When I took authorized leave from school due to some medical issues, people noticed, even people I BARELY knew, noticed. Even if you don't think they do, they will. I promise you that much, my friend.