i was very little when i was assaulted sexually by my month younger cousin, for years, she would threaten me if i didnt comply that she wouldnt play or hang out with me, and me being a young kid who didnt go to school or have any friends got scared and would comply, and id have to convince myself each time it was probably normal because it happened, and so yah, it was only recent that ive spoken up about it, cause it was so painful which is why i hate things that mention stuff similar, which, later on in life i would be sexually assualted again by someone in school named noah, who would make me touch him or he wouldnt wanna hang out with me anymore, when i was young i was socially dependent cause id been running and hidding alot, so i felt like i needed to cling to someone no matter the cost, even if it were my own body