it's been sooo long (since the last i've seen my so-) since the last time i posted !!

or well ,,, since the last time i've been active here in general so i might aswell update yall and explain everything that happened before, meanwhile and will happen after my break :3

so im not gonna go into details of why the break happened in the first place because i want to leave the past in the past

if you know what happened, good for you, but please don't bring it up or ask anything about it, what's over is over

but yeah, what happened did impact me in a really big way to the point i had to run out of here with barely any explanation

not only out of here, but i actually didn't touch the internet for 19 days after i left

no discord, no youtube, no gamejolt, nothing

all i did was lay down all day long, thinking and crying

those were very painful moments for me to the point it's even hard to convey what i felt throught

but i did end up having a full recovery and i'm now even better than how i was before !

now, leaving behind the depressing shit i felt,,,

it's time to update you!

so the first clear change i want you to know, and please pay attention to this

i'm changing my online name to "Temi" and i am no longer accepting being called "Fear"

in the meantime i wasn't here, i took more big steps towards transitioning and now i don't feel like Fear fits me anymore

i want a fresh start for myself, finally fitting like the person i want to be

please understand and respect that.

i have also created lots of sorts of things while i wasn't here!

i've improved both my art and music skills

and as time goes on, i'll very slowly upload everything i did and will do here

i will also NOT be as active anymore, though i'll still make silly posts aside from art and music, like selfies or just sum stuffs iwanna say

about streams... no i actually didnt quit them :3

my schedule that i made some time ago, actually already has a date for my return to streaming

which will be august 1st! just a month from here

this doesn't mean i'll INSTANTLY stream on august 1st, it just means thats the line i will begin making streams from then on

i have a lot to catch up on, such as new games that have come out, old games i promised to play and also games i've been gifted in my break (im looking at you chaotic and the 4 games you gifted me vro)

my streams will also start becoming youtube videos! (i know i promised it a lot, but now it's actually going to happen)

i'm still not sure if the streams will be edited for youtube, or just the entire stream be uploaded

i'll think about that before i begin streaming and i'll soon have an answer and now talking about projects! >:3

anyways! that's all i have to say im pretty sure

it's actually a lot wowie

if there's anything else i want to say more, i'll make a follow up post

if i don't, then yeah consider this the resolution of everything that happened and will happen!

i am glad to be back, and i'm really excited to have you guys back along with me

i missed all of you a lot, and i hope we can have an actual good time together now and only share good memories from now on

you are all really special to me, and it warms my heart to see all the support im getting, so i'll make sure to make all of this worth it and do better for all of you people that believe in me

until then, see you on my next post!! (or the comments bc i'll be here to reply for a bit lol)

temi out :3