Life is all meaningless.

On the verge of suicide rn.

How should I do it?

When should I do it?

What would happen after I die?

Is there really a heaven and hell or is it just black?

If there is an afterlife?

Ik i would end up in hell.

Suffering eternally.

Feeling all the pain I've caused others.

Burning forever and ever.

Getting tortured every second.

Every minute.

Surprisingly my stupid ass actually thought of it and typed it.

I strongly hate myself.

Hate everything about myself.

Hate how I look.

Hate the fact that I have mild autism.

Hate the fact that I'm bipolar.

Hate the fact that I could possibly have more fucked up mental illnesses.

Hate how my voice sounds way to deep, way to annoying.

Waiting for my death.

It's gonna happen eventually.

I hope it's at least painful.

I wanna hear myself screaming in agony, feeling every part of my body torn apart.

Wish I was dead rn.

Sadly just beating myself up and cutting myself won't kill me.

I hope it happens tomorrow.

I truly deserve it.