Whether this is your first time on this account or not, welcome. There’s not really a main theme or a theme at all to this account, it’s more so of a space to ether let some thoughts out, to shitpost to distract myself from my bad mental state or to express some things that I love or to honestly just post random things. I don’t really care about how much followers or likes I get either. (It’s complicated but we will get there when we get there.) there’s always better to people to follow so why choose this account? Won’t ask, you probably have your reasons I guess.
My name is Bonnie, hi, the account you’re on right now. I am genderfluid but I’m a femboy, mostly go by she/they pronouns. Nothing much. Also it’s not my first time on this website, I have a lot of history here but I won’t dig into it.
Here are my past accounts if you are curious:
These all exist for a reason but again if you want to see that lore, check these because I certainly won’t explain it here.
ANYWAY, I am diagnosed with autism so that means I can go on and on about stuff. So keep that in mind as we go along and as this post progresses. I’m going to treat this pinned post like a bio too so expect much more info about me here.
You already know my name and my gender so I’m going to skip that if you read this far, also as you can tell I love expressing myself with gifs a lot so keep that in mind.
I either go by Bonnie or Scarlett, most people call me Bonnie though because that’s what I am most recouzed RECOGNIZE for. (Keep in mind I’m lazy to fix my typos so expect some post to have typos.)
Just to get out of this way now, my mental state is shit and my mental health is bad, this causes me to constantly stalk and worry about my post and followers, but it’s more common if I’m in a relationship. Won’t go into it but just imagine a yandere but her feelings aren’t shown, an introverted yandere is what I gave that term. I feel so much emotions, sometimes it causes me to be empty.
I hide most of my feelings though so you won’t really get to see the introverted yandere. I also have a thing where I vent and rant to myself every night, some bad, rarely good, but mostly bad. Trigger warning:
It’s about suicide, being homophobic to myself, and constantly wanting to end myself and such. I do this every night if I don’t have my phone to comfort me. Most of the time I think music as my friend because I know music can’t leave me. So I listen to my music every night, so if you expect me to post so late at night, this is why. I’m distracting myself from my depressive and overwhelming thoughts. I’m open letting my feelings out to some degree and people but never I will acknowledge this. Also please don’t make these feelings worse, I’m already broken from the past.
Depressing and sad stuff out of the way, let’s move on to something much more happier. Sorry for that info dump on you fellow gamejolter.
You know my name already, my gender, my mental health.. you might not even care about reading this because you expected this to be a short & sweet pinned post but no. I’m going to go all out and you have to suffer with me.
But fine.. if you read this far, I guess I can reward you with a normal bio but if you skip to this part. Can’t stop you.
Name: you already know all of that + my gender. READ THE TOP IF YOU WANT TO KNOW, NOT EXPLAINING IT AGAIN.
Loves: Japanese music (mostly medleys.), Karin Wong, and I don’t know.. mashups. 
Nice people too and also my senpai~ 
Dislikes + hatred: Gen Beta humor, 2024 humor, any type of shorts content and all of that. Any type of lgbtq phobic person, and etc. The usual.
I could list people to follow but again, I don’t follow that much people and I only mainly talk to one person on here. My mental state needs comfort from them. Like the top part of this message, I’m already broken and have been through so much.
But the big elephant in the room is my profile, I mean Karin Wong, WHO IS SHE AND WHERE IS SHE FROM~? But how is she. (Pfp art belong to their respective artists and modelers, I just love her so much.)
She is my wife, my only wife, my possession and mine. <3
Simple and short, I can go on and on talking about this fictional character but in short: she is my wife from a gacha, no questions ask. Moving along.
Wife. Wife. Wife.
Most people put their social media either in a pin post or in their bio right? Well I already linked my discord and YouTube on my bio, no I’m not linking it here, be productive for once and find it. Good luck~
The music that comforts me and distract my overthinking - > https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLT593TDAEyeW_jV7f4jxfFB2mBl1miy4f&si=akzkuxuLd0wA3st7
Do I own a gamejolt community, I don’t know.
Also don’t expect me to follow you back if you follow me. I’m not usually chronically online here anyway, oh and speaking of online, you did read the part about my mental state, yes? I’m always watching you. 
Let’s see, I already got most of what I want to say out and this draft was written at 2/21/24. Thanks for reading. May either forget to update it in the future or not.
Oh forgot to mention, I’m pansexual. I don’t care about your gender and such, just fix me. I think I’m already broken from so much past experiences and bad relationships.
Am I interested in you? No I’m taken. Just please have mercy on my fragile mindset. Every night is a distraction from already bad thoughts.
Speaking of dating, boy I have a lot of lore for that and I’m going to explain it? No. Just know all the people that I have dated broke me and my mindset. Am I interested in anybody? No. Don’t ask me, don’t confess to me, and certainly don’t manipulate me. I know who you are, well some people.
These gifs either make me feel immature or childish.
Anyway, Thank you for you’re attention and reading my pinned post.
Don’t worry more info about me in the future is on the way if you liked me rambling for whatever reason. If you do? Thanks I guess.
2/23/25
So… 4 likes this post has been getting some attention but not quite a lot but all that matters to me that it got noticed by some people.
Anyway why am i typing this today? Not sure to be honest, at the moment bae isn’t online and my mental state is semi-okay so might as well try to distract myself while waiting for senpai so the thoughts don’t win. I’m currently listening to a mashup too to get inspired by. It has a lot of Japanese songs and a bit of western. So that’s fun.
Hmmmm..
Have I ever mentioned that I don’t really like the #follow4follow and farming like method mostly all users do on here.
Good, I found a topic to analyze.. yeah I’ve been a “victim” to this at some point but that was 2-4 years ago so shut it.
(No offense to people who do this because I know a lot do.) Anyway farming likes and follow4follow, I heavily dislike and hate this idea because you don’t really get any genuine likes from posts and all they care about are likes. But most audiences are mostly targeted towards shitpost, they eat memes up like a farm animal. I mean.. at least if you draw, make fan art, attempting to make projects, or any of that stuff (You get the idea I hope.) , you got people who are mostly interested. But again I guess some people do need a start on gamejolt and that seems the most easy unless you are a game developer or someone like that.
Oh right, farming likes. Shitpost, shitpost, shitpost, might as well make a meme account then since no attention is getting needed for the normal post. I mean, what’s the point then. It’s almost as if they only followed you for some funny shitpost and not care about your normal post. anyway that’s it for this rant. Thanks for reading and see you when I decide to let a random thought out fellow Jolter.
Keep posting, farming, and good luck finding an audience.
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