I'll explain what's happening, so basically I get really sad and overthink a lot about someone who hasn't interacted with me in days, and it feels like they're purposely ignoring me and not knowledging me, this causes me to go into a deep depression episode and my mind is filled with them, and I see them when it's not real, and I can hear them telling me awful things, since this happens sometimes. I act different around the person, and I may become aggressive and defensive towards them, because it feels like they don't wanna be around me, or that they abandoned me, or maybe I have serious issues with being not talked to for a few days, because I feel abandoned in a way, honestly depends on how close I am with the person. It hurts a lot, and I'm sorry to anyone who has to put through it, I cant control and help it. your just gonna have to talk to me, and be gentle with me. it's the only solution.

I tend to always fight.

I don't know if I have any sort of trauma related to this.

and no I don't harm during this. Cruz always had those.

also, this doesn't happen on a daily basis. so don't worry about that.

also the shadow is a person, but I'm not telling who. guess for yourself. I do see people while I have an episode.