I wanna talk about being trans and how I'll deal with it in the future.

yes ik no one asked about this ive just been thinking about being trans recently.

now, it wouldn't surprise me if you didn't know this, but I am a transgender woman (male - female), and i've known I am for about 4 years now.

I rarely talk about it and that's kind of intentional.

I used to be extremely prideful about it and had the trans flag emoji in my display name.

since i've almost hidden my transgender-ness.

I am American, and even thought my state (new york) is very LGBTQIA friendly, its still going to be hard with the new american president.

I hide my gender because I'm scared.

to avoid bullying, de-validating my "femininity" because now in their(whoever i'm talking to in this scenario) eyes I'm a man, or just generally being thought of as somehow lesser then "real" women.

if trump, the soon to be american president, is actually going to recognize only "male and female, assigned at birth" then I wont be legally recognized as such. I will still attempt to somehow, get estrogen, continue being transgender, and living as I am.

my family supports me and they aren't a threat or issue.

my father, in fact, is a transgender man (female - male), and my mother (cis woman) wouldn't marry a transgender man if she didn't support transgender people. (well she married him before he came out/started his transition, yet they have still always supported trans people).

there are thoughts of leaving the country.

only if it gets too bad, however.

I want to appear cis in public, and hopefully I will succeed to do that.

thanks for letting me ramble about gender <3

(PS: if you somehow no longer support me because of this, before you ask yes I have a therapist and I am not mentally ill or brainwashed now go do anything besides get angry at women)