I really really dont know

Ive been so happy so many times but I JUST feel like that im doing too much.

My jokes. My overwhelming energy. My life !

I have been really unfunny lately I feel. I feel that I'm just cringe because of my jokes and constant energy.

I feel everything going to a complete waste.

I recently even found out I was being gr00med by someone for the past couple of months ever since September. ( 2025 )

Ive acted weird and have had many mental breakdowns during those months.

Ive been a bad influence. An unfunny person. A disgusting person. A overwhelmed person who only grew up not wanting to tell people anything or im rlly afraid i'll get yelled at.

I think everything is about me. It isn't.

Ive came out as unloving to people.

Ive even hurt some people on here that I regret.

I dont want every memory to last. But this did actually sidetrack uhm-

I just have been trying and trying to avoid my gr00mer too but he's everywhere.

Ive tried to be funny and joke around but then all and all and all of my actions are really cringe and I'll always be the annoying and cringe child in my class.

I dont even have much talent.

I try with my art. I try with everything but EVERYONE seems to do stuff better than me.

I dont know what to do. I'm just a selfish. Untalented. Cringe. Crybaby. Ugly. Overweight. Annoying. Weak. Easily-fooled. Disgusting. I'm everything horrible.

I always thought I was better off dissapearing

Ive broken many barriers in life. And all I do is take in the cold air and sit in my own puddle of mistakes in silence.

but for all what means.

im just as what everyone thinks I am.