I just don't know, man. These past 3 months haven't been eventful, just small developments on projects, school being unpleasant, and me sitting around watching it all go down. I just don't know what to do at the moment, and that's not saying I don't have a group that can help with that (as I have peers who have knowledge in different things I'm interested in) I just can't personally bring myself to do much that would result in a me that got good sleep and did stuff.

I come up with many ideas, (mostly) fangames, but also original projects. But 9 times out of 10 it results in an empty/unfinished project page where nothing's being done. The latter half of this year felt like that honestly, and I don't like it. I feel lazy, unproductive, and slothish creatively. Other aspects of my life suffer from this as well, such as my Christianity, something much higher on the scale of life that could impact the way I interact on the internet.

I want to be clear: I want to be a good Christian, I want to (occasionally) make (God-abiding) games, I want to be an animator (eventually), and I want to be a good human, but I just don't feel like it, and Christianity specifically demands a lot more than I previously thought, leading me to debating whether I need to stop game development or anything else for it.

Another roadblock is, now that I recognize the issue, what do I do to fix it? Taking a break wouldn't do much, since I haven't been doing much anyway, and locking in is gonna be hard indicated by my previous failed attempts to do so. I feel like a rock in a hard place.