So um

Im not upset now but last night i argued with my dad a couple times so this calmed me down

Anyways i don't really have much to say about this because the art kinda explains it

I do believe that he loves me, but he was raised differently so he's harsh, and he doesn't really show affection with hugs or stuff. Its kinda hard to explain it. He does genuinely want to hang out or spend time with me, but i don't really like to because he jokes around with sensitive topics, tells me to act girly, yells at me, threatens me with things i love to do or have, and makes me feel more isolated than i already am by giving my sister and especially my brother the most stuff, so its uncomfortable to be around him, and my mom tries to make us get along but it doesn't really work

He also thinks he's the man of the House which is wrong in my opinion. He cuts hair at the house because he hates following other people's rules so that's why he doesn't have a actual barber shop, he barely makes much money compared to my mom, because she works at a furniture store. She bought our house, pays most of the bills, so i consider her the woman of the House.

My dad always tell my family, and i that the house is dirty which it usually is but he rarely cleans.

He basically just sleeps on the couch all the time, wakes up cuts hair if he has customers, gets us food, and goes back to the couch.

He always says im fat which makes me insecure and i do have a little belly but im not fat, not even that chubby, but he has the biggest belly in my family. He always tells me "look at you now, you're already fat. Just imagine you in 4 years at least"

But yeah that's all im gonna say because i hate getting WAY too deep into my personal life but i only make these vents to calm me down and let all the weight on my shoulders go

Im fine with people comforting me but sometimes i have people who are like "you need to tell the police about this" or stuff like that. I don't want to get the police involved because i don't want to hurt my family even more. Plus im gonna be 18 in 4 More years and years usually go by quickly sometimes so ill be fine if im actually successful, but i do appreciate them trying to help at least.

My eyes teared up a little ._.