Something I wanted to get off of my chest. I’d appreciate some type of comments, and maybe more than 3 likes because it makes me feel like I’m heard. Yes, I know those 3 people who seem to always like my stuff (not like there’s anything bad about it). Susgrass, Fazball, and…I forgot (sorry to that person 😢, also sorry for putting you guys on blast.) ANWHOOO

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I’m questioning it (my religion). My family is Christian, though I don’t remember the last time we went to church. We still believe in God, at least they do. I’m not sure if I’m deciding to be atheist or what. I’m questioning God, or gods in general. I respect everyone else’s religious opinions. My family ain’t that religious though. My mom got me a Cross necklace and bracelet. I haven’t worn it since my birthday and a little after that (2025 oct- dec). I may start back wearing them just to make her happy and know that I’m still using the jewelry (since, you can’t just leave it around). I have no problems with wearing them. I don’t have any religious trauma.

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My family:

It’s not perfect, there’s fights between my mom and my dad, some yelling, rarely any hitting. I don’t remember the last time something like that happened. Though, my relationship with my mom and dad is healthy and great. I don’t have any issues with my family. Sometimes my dad yells at me though, though I deserve it. 99% of the time it’s cuz I’m picking on my brother, talking back, or ‘acting smart’. My dad isn’t abusive and doesn’t yell at me for nothing. School life is also well. All As. I’m starting to like school (cuz of my friends, classmates, laughter, jokes, BUT ONLY CUZ OF THAT). I still hate getting up in the morn. It’s okay. I don’t get much sleep, I stay up on my phone, but it isn’t unhealthy nor healthy at the same time. I’m not randomly falling asleep. I DO have bags under my eyes. Not bad ones though.

Out of a scale of 5, I rate my life 4.5/5. Things could be better. I can fix some things about myself and habits. Not suicidal, never thought about it. Used to cry as a kid and hated my life (4-7, but that’s only cuz I got in trouble, and rightfully so. I’m a problem maker, a lot of my punishments are deserved) cuz I was just a little kid who had no brain, now it’s good. I do jump around, run around, and stuff like that (specifically when I’m listening to something on my phone, 9 times out of 10 it’s cuz I’m listening to Sparta remixes). I don’t think those are signs of neurotypical. I recently smashed my toe when jumping (stimming? If you call it that? Idek what stimming exactly is), WITH MY OWN FOOT. But yeah. That’s it (also, my family is homophobic, so I’m suppressing my gayness…until I’m either 18 or out the house cuz I’m scared)