my feelings are relevant

no matter how hard i try to accept myself, i always manage wishing for more, or to be someone else.

i want to live in a neighbourhood.

i want to have many friends

i want to embarce the pop culture i love

i want to be a nerd

i want to be open about being omniflux

i want to have short hair

i want to die my hair

i want to be cool

i want to have a lgbtq pin

i want to be a cosplayer

i want to go to comicon

i want to go to a better school but im scared

i want to play the drums

i want to be anxiety-free

i want to be not homesick

i want to be content.

but i realise.

none of that can all be possible.

can it?

...

im not sure.

i just want to express myself.

But im too scared to do so.