Lore: he's just me, but the difference is he wasn't able to get through the pain he's always going through so he had to nicknamed himself "Softie.zip" or "CJ64.vent" because he keeps on being used and can't stand up for himself and trys to self harm himself but he can't... Now he's trying to keep his emotions and negative thoughts to himself and trying not to cry no matter what happens. Even if it means keeping those emotions away from his friends and family.