I'm not fine, that's it, I can pretend as much as I want that I'm fine but it's no use, I lose the most important person in my life, it hurts, especially when you depended on her emotionally for EVERYTHING... I had no life , and I still don't, I spent my whole life alone, without having really important people in my life, and when I happened to have one and lose it, it destroyed my psyche, I hate to vent about this kind of thing because I don't I want the person to seem like the wrong one in the story, she has her problems and I can't talk about them, so that makes the person seem like the wrong one, but no, she's not the only one in the wrong, I feel so alone at the point of expressing my feelings on the internet..i never thought i'd get to this point lmao, but, one moment i had an incredible person that i could count on for everything, and the next i just..im alone again, it hurts so much, even after everything what he told me, and everything I told him too, even after that person said he doesn't love me anymore, I keep going after her, it seems like I do it on purpose sometimes, I was so fine, but just talk with that person, ruins everything again, I try to vent to so many people but, they are not close to me, and it will never be the same as when I vent to him, sorry to everyone who is worried about me, I hate it worry people, that's why I tend to ignore what I feel, I'm just not emotionally stable, one moment I'm fine and the next my world collapses again and I remember that I'll never be able to talk to that person again, I can talk, but It won't be like before, feeling like that person doesn't want to talk to you is horrible, I don't feel like drawing, eating, playing, or doing anything, I just wait for the day to end so I have to wake up tomorrow and have to go school and then spend the whole day doing nothing, I even try to draw, but sometimes it seems that I just do it out of obligation, you know how much I worry about this account, whether or not this account was a dream come true As a child, when I was a child, I always wanted to be recognized for my art and.. today I achieved it, and I want to deserve it, but I think that making forced drawings is not the best way to demonstrate what you love to do, isn't it?.. just, sorry for worrying you, i'm getting better ok? and I will try to improve more, because... I remember that person always told me to take care of myself, and even though we are no longer together, I will keep my promise

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I'm sorry for the spelling mistakes, I'm using the translator ;p