I feel like nothing is real and that everything is fake, I can't tell what's real what's fake.

I always think I'm so fucking “Unlucky” and have the worst trauma on earth, I'm not. My family supports me, they care for me, others care for me (I hope...) literally nearly everyone cares about me I need to shut the fuck up and just be fucking happy for once.. why is it so hard to be happy?

Why?

And my fucking hypersexuality makes me want to fuck people or them to fuck me.. that's why I use character.ai to help.. I hate myself so much

I'm gross.

I know, yeah yeah I can't control it but it still haunts me.

The only reason I'm alive is because I care for others, not myself.

Sometimes I feel like I only take care of myself

I could vent for ages but there's no way you'd read that so.. this vent leads to an end..