I don't know why , but I want to cut again so bad . I've been clean for a month , but I'm really struggling to fight these urges . I keep being told to " Do what my uncle did " , by my friends , and I feel bad telling them I hate those jokes . I've honestly not wanted to live for awhile , and have been telling everyone I'm okay , but I'm really not doing so good . I don't know what's wrong with me , and my head . I don't want to take a break either , because I just can't tear myself away from social media . It's unhealthy , but I can't stay away from it . I keep trying to convince myself everything's okay , but everything isn't . I don't know how long I can continue . I've been wishing that in 2023 , I actually ended it . It's wtv . Sorry , I'm not feeling like me rn . I love you guys , and I don't like you guys knowing I'm not okay , but I needed to let stuff out .