so my sister just found out about me being trans along with my poly relationship. and now i feel like i'm stuck in a fucking corner.

she basically looked through my headset browser and also looked through my vrchat shit

like omfg she is SO fucking nosy. and what makes it worse is that i cant do ANYTHING about it. my dad tells her to go through my shit all the time.

i get zero fucking privacy in this house.

i cant have friends, i cant have a partner(s), i cant be trans, i cant like the people i like, i cant even have a fucking door on my room.

what makes it EVEN WORSE is that now my dad thinks i'm friends with a fucking adult.

he heard me talking to my british friend and asked what part of the uk shes from. this made her extremely uncomfortable bc she knows how my dad is AND how old he is. so she just replied with "notts" ( i think thats how you spell it )

now he thinks that shes an adult and that i cant have friends online bc of that.

then he started fucking guilttripping me saying "i'm the one that gave you these priviledges, you should be thankful."

BITCH I AM THANKFUL ? YOU JUST CANT APPRECIATE ME WHATSOEVER OR EVEN RESPECT WHO I AM.

my sister says its puberty, but i even told her that not even i know if i'm trans or not.

labels fucking suck, and i'm this close to just killing myself.

ever since it started snowing, i've just considered to bury myself out in the snow and bare cold so i can freeze to death because i can't deal with this shit anymore.

so now i'm considering if i wanna just stop being online or just rebel against him.

another thing too, i might just untransition.

like ima be so real, i dont even wanna fucking deal with this shit. its for my own safety, and my friends.