honestly almost everything i do with someone feels so criticizable, "what if they didn't know it was a joke? what if it shouldn't be a joke and i'm actually just an immature asshole??" "Are they hiding something from me??" "maybe i did something, maybe they didn't like the way i touched them,". I wish i could just be less aware, i wish i didn't care about my single mistakes. I wish i could go home and be confident that i'll be okay. Everyone should do what they want to, and be themselves but not me, I'm the one who messed up and IM the one who needs to pay something. I'm the loser who doesn't know what they're talking about and makes everyone uncomfortable. I'm always late, i'm always forgetting something. So i need to do my best and be what everyone wants. I've already failed, so i feel no point in doing things but at the same time i hate that i don't do things??? what a hypocritical idiot, i wish everything was quiet, just for a moment

sorry this was random i'll post some art soon i think i got some ideas for doodles today