I had a breakdown but my mom actually noticed this time... lol. It only took it for me to be sent down to the garage by myself to watch all three of my dogs and me choking myself until I coughed in the dark. Literally.

Anyways. It was because it was abt my little sister bringing her friends over to our house when they got home and I was cleaning the house already, and then I had to take care of thr dogs at the same time, while everyone was screaming and yelling, blah blah blah.

Whatever. Continuing, my mom brought my little brothers to go downstairs to yhr garage aswell, and my mom said whatever abt me looking like I was "Not okay" but I said nothing and my little sister yelled upstairs so my mom had to go check on all of them

I went to my room and started to have a breakdown because not only was i sent downstairs, but my dad said "I'm going to kill you" over and over while he tried to take away my phone, to the point he was literally picking me up and such.

I was choking myself aswell

my mom didn't go and check on me for a while, godly knows what i would've done if she didn't finally come and "check what was wrong"

Yeah, blah blah blah, I (finally)talked about how I "don't like" when dad uses swears and slurs and etc, stuff at school about the teacher who i mentioned vaguely in another vent post, and abt bullying

And after years of keeping it 5o myself, I finally told my mom i "maybe possibly be trans"

And she just stayed silent. She asked why do i think so, and i said whatever abt how I liked being called he him by friends and how I feel like a guy .

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All she said was essentially that she doesn't think I am trand, and that I was only "uncomfortable because I'm a teen and that I am just uncomfortable with my body developing"

What the fuck.

She said that "You cannot change your body and hormones, and what people do for that stuff is horrendous"

What

The actual

Fuck

I was thinking while typing this, when I was feeling better,

That no. She doesn't think so, she doesn't actually think I am trans, she doesn't believe in trans people .

What was it even thinking? Pfft. This is pathetic. She doesn't actually believe that I can be trans? That i am just confused? After years of thinking about killing myself because I'm surrounded by people who don't think that trans people are "real"? That those years are just "me being uncomfortable with my body changing"???

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Oh no, whoops. Forget it, apparently. Because I can't speak up for myself.