Worthy of love, worthy of being a person, and what i mean by that is that youre a human being like everyone, but it doesnt mean youre not loved, nor does make you any less special, because i can say, friend, there is no other you in this whole vast world, and in the vastness, i find in you a will and strenght i see no one else, so dont give up now, cuz i know the end to the suffering is near, and its not death, deaths the illusion, because death is nothing, nothing because you reach no thing with it, and i cant even explain how many wonderful things you can reach if you stay with me, the people you can help, because i can tell you, what makes our life meamingful is people, this relationship is the whole damm meaning of life, and so thats why i fight for your life even when it has nothing to do with mine, because i wanna see you growing into a beautiful butterfly, and i wanna see the swing from your wings, like an angel, i wanna see you flying to your glory, because thats what all friends want to their friends.

And yeah, its hard to not succumb to the voices, to the negativity and to the venom, but let demolish this castle of lies ans from it start to build truths, because what will make you strong is sharing, to have someoen you trust to share, cuz no one can manage this pain alone, not you or anyone else.

Cant you see, buddy? How much youre cared for, the worth in your life, theres a whole story to you, and i think of you like a living museum, and to be history is quite a achievement, and to acheive that is to be born, becuase to be born is to win the fight of life and death, cuz there are many who die at birth, or with 2 months, and i know its easy to complain, yes, but its harder to want to keep going, so hear me out dear, cuz instead of wasting your time planning on some way to vanish from this world, take this time and use it to change your mind, because you dont imagine it right, but

You are loved

You are cared for

You are worthy of so many things

"Why do i have this pain?"

Because we dont have a burden heavier than what we can manage, god knows exactually the battle we can fight and win, and just like training in the gym, you'll need to prove to him how strong you are, and i just know that he would be so proud to see you right now, the way you are, because to see such a strong son/daughter, is the greatest gift, which it is what you are, a blessed miracle, a present from the gods, cuz your parents spent their entire lofe fighting so you could fly to the sky right now, with your beautiful wings, and i know youre gonna create the wings in the right time, but dont let this pain consume you, nor toy with your life, because thereno going back, only forward, so know that youre unvaluable, nothing buys you, not even gold because youre worth so much more that no one is able to have you easily.