First of all, if you wish to get out of this, one of the changes necessary for it is your habits. You will need to get out of your bubble, yes, it wont be easy, yes, but if nothing changed in the time you spent doing the same thing over and over again, then its not like it will change, no hero will see your pain through your eyes. It will hurt to change, but it will do you worse to stay like this and continue getting worse until you have enough of it. Dont wait for someone to seek you so you can open your heart, do it right now, no angel can come down from heaven and cast magic spells to cure you. Life isnt an simple cartoon, anime, where everything perfectly solves itself with lazy writing. First of all, know thyself, learn how to find yourself in this maze, accept that life is suffering, is absurd, yes, to live is an absurd, but the worth in life is in the little things, its in the details that the best things are. Replace thoughts related to complains to positive thoughts. Be grateful that youre here with me right now, because this could never happen, by all odds, you could die earlier, at age 1, 2, 3... But you didnt, and that miracle, that blessing, makes everytime we spend with you unique, it gives you worth and makes every second with you meaningful, because sure, we might not have tons of topics to talk about, but even in silent moments, to have you with me in the same planet is a true blessing.