Your Subjective Reality

“I can’t wait till we move next year, it’ll be a fresh start”

You say this in a conversation about problems

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So, let me review what you think

You think that when we move all these problems will just magically disappear

You think I’ll go

“Oh, I never wanted to be female, I was only joking with you”

You think my sadness will just go away.

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No, you’re wrong.

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Your reality has me be the person YOU want me to be

But I don’t want to be that person

And I’m fucking tired of feeding your reality

By pretending to be that person

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I’m done.

But am I?

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You think I’m pretending

You are just waiting for me to say it so you can say

“I knew it all along”

To be relieved that I no longer have any problems

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But that’s just your subjective reality.

In reality,

It’ll just be the same problems but in a new place

And they’ll be worse.

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Are you prepared for that?

Are you prepared for the impact you have on me to start impacting you even more?

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You think in your reality everything will be fine

No

It’ll end up with me six feet under

Is that what it will take for you to see reality?

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If it is,

That’s unfortunate for me.