I'm fucking shaking right now

I'm back, I looked myself in the mirror and I am just :| (Neutral) and drank some water, removing dark BG because I feel less sad (Shout-outs to Mike)

I'm leaving for some minutes to calm myself down and go to bathroom, cya

Ok enough venting If I keep going I'll just get more depressed and probably be talked shit behind back

I'm feeling bad since the start of this year, I say "LOL "LMAO" but I'm not actually laughing I'm just doing that to not hurt or make someone think it's unfunny, in fact memes are extremely unlikely to make me laugh.

13 vent posts in a row in less than a hour, bully me, I'm totally just a attention seeker and whiny bitch that totally guilty trips on purpose and doesn't feel depressed

Take a moment to realize, A LOT of my posts in my ALT account is about guilt, depression, anger, fear, I'm just trying to be a nice person and trying to get my happiness back, I miss my old family.

I help

Don't get helped back

I try best to not talk rude

People try their worst to sound calm and patient with me

I'm too fucking empty to even feel depressed, I just do a blank face 24/7 while talking to people, sorry for posting too much

My non-blood related sister was right almost the entire time, My brother was also right, everyone was right, why don't I listen? Am I such a naive and stubborn person that has NO emotions and feelings anymore and just act like this?