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I feel bad when my friends take a long time to respond to me. I know they have their own lives and problems, but I feel like it's my fault and they don't respond because I'm annoying.
I keep pushing my good friends further away from me
All I do is make others feel sorry for me.
I am very useless, I am not able to talk to people through a virtual chat without feeling embarrassed and shy.
I want to talk with someone but there is no one there and I don't want to bother nobody
A friend of mine doesn't stop making jokes that bother me and calling me gay in a derogatory way. I've tried several times to tell him to stop because it makes me feel bad, but he continues and I can't ignore him. I'm fed up.
Nobody loves me because I'm very ugly, I want to change My stupid body
#HorrorGame fnaf the joy of creation

