no more living in the edge, my fans are here to lift me to the safe path

Maybe tomorrow everything will be better, I will try to not reply to any callout or shit said behind my back, only if needed, I'm doing the minimal

I love you guys. I fighted so hard to not punch myself to death and won, and you guys encouraged me to not do it, I swear, I'm mostly emotionless but I really love you all.

Very surprised no one talked shit behind my back in that GC because they're staring at my posts or getting their consciences up

The actual reason I want likes is just to see how many people care about me, fame gets lower priority sure.

I'm NOT using ADHD as a excuse to shit, PLUS I STRUGGLE TO SPEAK NORMALLY, I FIGHT AND TRY MY BEST.

Everytime I accidentally offend or act rude, believing or not, it's not me, it's my intrusive thoughts, ADHD. Maybe other disorder or illness but closest as I can ponder of.

I'm really sorry for what I did but I dislike all this fuss about me.

I have extremely intrusive thoughts and it's not my fault when I accidentally offend someone, people just fucked with me since age 7.

My actual sincere apologies to everyone, I'm not going to kill myself but I was close, I self harmed hard though, don't worry I'm okay, I'm just depressed and enraged

Reason why I'm talking in posts because everyone will harass me if I go to that dammed group chat. I'm not immature I'm just FUCKED up In the head and I might need some TIME ALONE.