i try my best...

for everything... to please my parents, my brothers, my sisters... my whole family... everything i do... it's all meaningless... it does nothing... it affects no one...

why do i even try... why do i even make these posts??? it's not gonna do anything... people will just hate me more and more and more and more...

i regret doing all the weird shit i had done in the past... all of it... i wish i could back in time and tell my younger self to stop doing it... so i wouldn't have the hate... but i can't do that...

i apologized... to zmokeii... to ion... to everyone i had done stuff too... they accept... but nothing happens... it's like i had said nothing... i'm always and will stay a disease on the internet... my life means absolutely nothing...