Think about it, your family, these people are the ones who care the most for you, and when i say family it can also mean your friends, because if they care about you, have this special care with you, yes, they are your family too, so forgive them and your parents, because i know love isnt a simple topic, no, its way more complex than what you think, cus its not simple, plain and empty "i love you"s, no, loves shown by care, when we warn you about something, so you dont get hurt. When we give gifts, and whats a greater gift than to be with each other? There isnt anything comparable to such gift. Howd you think they feel like when they lose you? Because yes, your loss is important, cause youre one, unique, you have your own likes, dislikes, and all of that, your personality, it all makes you the beautiful, wonderful being you are, and theres no one like you, you ARE unique, even if you dont think so. Do you know how many babies are dead in birth? Over 2 million, PER YEAR. Do you know how sadder the world would be without you? Do you know how much your mother would have cried if her so wanted baby was born dead already? The biggest blessing is to be alive right now, with me, with your family. Its a miracle, and thats what gives your life worth, not only that, but the entire fight your parents went through to have you, because they too had to go through their own demons, and yet here you are, with a house, with a phone, cant you see how that builds worth? If you have done surgeries, its a blessing to get through them, because there could have gone a thousand million things weong you dont even imagine, but yet, here you are, so yes, you are strong and worthy of this love you receive and dont acknoledge. Youre beautiful the way you are, and dont let anyone else tell you otherwise, not even you.

Go find some self-love, get out of bed, if thats your biggest challenge, than doing that is already enough. Youre not hulk, spider-man or any super-hero, youre a person like me, so dont push yourself too hard, youre not perfect, we're like glass, if people arent careful, we shatter, but the thinh about life is we pick up our shards and glue them apart, and re-build ourselves. So go, eat well, take a good bath, tidy your room, work out, work on yourself, work around your mindset instead of thinking a thousand ways on how to kill yourself, because itll get you nowhere.