hi yall. been awhile. gonna answer some questions that you lot probably have after all this time.

make sure to put this as background music while reading:
https://scotch-music.bandcamp.com/album/scotch-the-world

Q: Who are you?
A: the name's Coronzon, though i go by many other names, too - Nell, Cory, Lina, Sveltana (that one was fun to use lol), etc. i probably liked and followed your game and maybe even wrote an encouraging comment or a review and disappeared into the dark in april, and whaddya know i'm back now.

Q: Where have you been????
A: as i've said to yall, i've went to the monastery. legit. i was a nun for a month and a half until i got kicked out, and let me tell you, whatever illusions you have about nuns will disperse this instant. being a nun is awful. you're on legs all day doing menial labor and at the end of each you feel like several organs in your body will decline - after a week i got used to it, though. i also used to work out before going all monastic so it wasn't THAT bad. i'm 56 kilogramms as of writing this and i feel great - my stamina is something to envy. the hygiene was what bothered me the most, though, or it's absence. you work your ass out no matter how cold or hot it is out there, wearing the same shit every day and only taking a very brief shower before going to sleep. there's a reson why the scottish call nuns "the rancid maidens". next time you have thoughts of lust about a nun think about the odor they carry and how you'll smell just as bad after the deed. dumbass. the second was thing was how the sisters treated me - the second i was introduced i felt that they didn't like me. prob sensed my hatred for god LMAO. i became a nun to help people, not because i was a religious zealot or anything - i think of god as my rival, my enemy. i bear no illusions about how his heavenly ass is magnanimous and shit - for all i know that mf is more malconcious than anything. aaaaand that probably showed as i was serving. the mother (basically head nun) told me once that my ego is too big and that i lack faith. didn't care, though. i was there to help the sick and the poor and the few opportunities i got to do so were great.

Q: If you were at the monastery for only a month and a half why didn't you return sooner?!?!?
A: i thought it would be awkward to do so, cuz yall would probably think that i pulled off that monastery stunt looking for attention, so i lied in wait for a while, thinking "oh well i'll wait for a week and then come back". then the next week came and i thought that again. then weeks turned to months. then i stopped caring.

Q: What were you doing all that time???
A: not much. reapplied to my university (had to quit it because you can't be a nun and a student at once now can you?). found a job as a gas station as a clerk, too - still work there btw. in the meantime i was watching old anime and playing some decrepit games while popping some cans of beer and listening to celtic punk on bandcamp. life's good.

Q: Are you coming back to Gamejolt?!?!??!
A: nope.

Q: Are we still friends, at least?..
A: nahhhh

Q: Why?????
A: you don't even know how free i felt when i actually stopped visiting this thrice-damned site. no people that i need to listen to and half-assedly reply to, no final fantasy clones that i need to play and write an encouraging review for even though the only good thing about them is the fact that you can close it at any time you want, no teens that tell me how downtrodden they feel and ask for me to reassure them that everything will be okay, AND NO YANKEES TRYING TO HIT ON ME DEAR GOD YALL WERE DOWN BAD. now it's just me, my pc, the site where i watch pirated anime, a bunch of old ass rpgs to play through and an unopened beer bottle. i don't own anything to anyone. to be more precise, YOU lot owe me a lot for giving you a shoulder to lean on and feedback for your pet projects, but i don't care enough to call in any debts.

Q: Are you gonna continue making games?
A: nah. i realised that no matter how much i'll try, life will get in the way, fate will throw stones at me and god himself will step down from the heavens to put a tube in my wheel and make me fall down miserably. what better way to deny all of the above the joy of seeing me try and fail time and time again than just not taking the bait? that's what i'm saying.

Q: What about PFRPG?! You worked so long on it!
A: ah yes my magnum opus and biggest mistake. not gonna come back and finish it. miss me with that. i've heard that @Sianko389 released the latest build for it (thanks for that btw) and @Pokem-Jagodzinski tryed to do something with it. Pokem, if you're still reading this, don't bother. stop trying to salvage a burning ship. the captain left first - that should tell you of how much of a fool's errand it is. you won't be able to make it. for one, to finish PFRPG you gotta be me. and you ain't me. for two, there's so many copyright pitfalls to the game that unless you're living in russia or china you're gonna get sued out of existance by paizo lmaooooo, so yeah, just stop. yall can still use all that i've made for it - remember to credit me. hope yall will build something better out of that shipwreck.

Q: Do you really hate god?
A: i've stopped having illusions about god being merciful and shit once my skin disease resurfaced when i was 12 or so. life was a nightmare. this year i had my toe cut in half to stop the rot from setting in it and also had an operation on my breast to remove the tumor from it, and that's not to mention all the other hardships this heavenly piece of shit put me through and probably laughed his ass off from seeing me suffer. fuck you, god.

Q: Are you actually insane?
A: you tell me lmao

Q: Is it true that you're russian?
A: sure am. if you have a problem with that then gently put that barrel to your head.

Q: Do you have any french/greek blood?
A: no. whatever i've told you about my ancestry, whether it's half french/greek/romanian/moldavian was lies, lies, lies. i may have some distant finnish blood but that's it. i'm russian. можете поплакать об этом)

Q: Is your name really Helen?
A: nah. who in their right mind gives their real name on the net? well i'm sure feeling whimsy now so i'll tell yall what i my mom named me. Лизавета. Liz for short. i didn't tell anyone my real name because everyone always made derogatory deviants of it that made my blood boil but now? i don't care lmao

Q: Are you still alcoholic?
A: i spend half of my paycheck on cheap beer, what do you think?

Q: Do you smoke?
A: i tried once and it tastes so fucking bitter i decided not to bother with it afterwards lol

Q: Do you do drugs?
A: not yet))))

Q: Did you die?
A: did your parents drop you on your head when you were little? i don't know who spread that dumbass rumor about me but if i find them i'll out their spinalcord and play golf with their head.

Q: Is it true that you never loved anyone?
A: nope. i've recently found the person that i love the most. it's me. a week ago while doing my usual evening stuff i looked into the mirror and found a goddess staring back at me. i love my brown, dyed hair tucked into the swaggest ponytail ever. i love my grey eyes, devoid of any life, just like me. i love this slim consitution that makes me look like the night itself, walking around, wearing a human body. i love my wardrobe of stuff i bought on sale that fits my build like a goddamn glove. you fucking rock, Liz. everyone else can go to hell.

Q: What about you pixiv archive of stuff?
A: oh yeah that's something that i wanted to share with yall as a comeback gift of sorts. here https://mega.nz/folder/0uV0QLoR#dd7rBOuGuwOtxOJaa_CEhQ if you want to finish it then by all means, just credit me as the og archivist.

Q: Is that it? Is this what you've become?
A: hell yeah, and i wouldn't have it any other way. look at it from this perspective - i have a job, a steady income, multiple hobbies, my own room where i can do whatever the fuck i want, no friends to take my already limited time away from me and this bottle of beer that i have yet to pop open. life's good. i'm happy. can you say the same?

guess that covers it all, or most of it. if you have any other stuff then ask away, but don't act surprised when i just insult you instead. cheers

funny how this time keeps slipping by. better find some sunshine for those eyes)