Just so you know, I'm pretty mentally unstable, I can start crying like a little girl after listening to a couple of minutes of sad music, that's true and I'm not ashamed of it, I think I should accept myself for who I am, no matter how weird I am, no I'm not autistic or anything, I'm just a simple guy who likes weird things, and I like to do people happy, many ask me to draw something for them, and sometimes I ask them what to draw for them, the problem is that I can't find the time for it, or I just don't feel like drawing, so I think some people don't want anything to do with me, but I really want to try for them. Also, drawing on paper is not as easy as it seems.

And I don't want to rush things so that they turn out badly, plus I want to spend time with my family sometimes, i think I've already written this but it seems some people don't want to understand me, so yes, I really want to do something good for people I still feel bad after one of my friends gave me gifts for which I'm very grateful to him, but I didn't do anything for him, no gifts, no drawings, nothing, and I feel disgusting because of this. I didn't want to offend anyone with this post. honestly, I don't know why I wrote this shit. maybe I just wanted to express myself because you guys, i can only express myself for you (although I can tell my parents too). I hope you don't think I'm crazy after this post.

Thanks for reading