I don't know why but I'm tired of everything. Imagine being that do same things everyday and also want to do something different but you are can't because you're worrying... I'm mostly hiding myself from the world because I always scare to be judged. I'm mostly spending time on here and this gives me headaches but I can't leave here because of my friends and communities I've joined... (also the games I've been working on but they are not an excuse) I love and also hate here and real life... I'm tired... just tired.

I will not gonna quit, take a break, self-h*rm or k*ll myself for this because I know this will not help me. I'm a former masochist, I know what I'm saying...

Why modern life is like a cage that you can't never escape? Holiday is coming but I'm not happy for it. All of my holidays are just... you know what, I'll say : SH*T... literally.

Happy holidays for everyone because mine won't be happy... Please don't talk with me about this, I'll ignore you.

I don't care anymore...

I GAVE UP!

for being happy...