Sometimes I really hate how much I care. I give so much energy and love to people I call my friends from discord but lately, I can't help but feel like maybe they secretly hate me. Maybe it's just my brain messing with me — overthinking every silence, every small change, every ignored message. But it hurts. It really does. I just want to be enough, to be appreciated the way I try to appreciate others. I don't want to keep guessing if I'm unwanted. I don't want to care this much… but I do.

Sometimes. I always questioning myself.

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Do they hate me?

Did I do something wrong?

Was I too much? Too quiet? Too emotional?

I keep replaying everything in my head — every word, every message, every silence.

And the worst part is, I don't even know if it's real or just my overthinking making me feel like a burden again.

I care so much that it hurts. And all I want is some reassurance… or maybe just proof that I'm not as easily forgettable as I fear."

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