I've been at home all day by myself, and I'm so lazy that I won't do anything even though I want to and I need to do several things right now.... It makes me wonder if I'm just a screw up sometimes because I can't do what I need to do, like sure I've cleaned the house a little bit but I'll still probably get yelled at by my dad whenever he gets home even though I just want to sleep good for once.... Maybe even forever....

What sucks is that my dad's gone all day and most of the time just hangs out with his friend meanwhile I'm here wondering what the hell I should do and trying to get my brain to want to do something but nothing works cause of how much I fucking suck at being productive....

I'm surprised I'm even doing good in school at this point...