Lately ive been having very negative thoughts. Throughout my childhood ive always had an over active imagination. Now, as pre-teen, it stuck with me. I always used to use it to cope with past trauma. Im remembering things i dont want to remember. Im tired of always feeling like im on a leash, yet no ones on the other end. I honestly feel trapped. I always just want to sit down and cry. My moms always yelling at me. My sister hates me even though i do everything for her. the kids at school call me names, mainly "weirdo". I wouldnt say theyre wrong. People tell me im terrible at art, being my safe space. It no longer feels safe, it feels like an injection in my chest. I really, really just need space from the world, maybe then i wouldnt be so stressed for a minute.