THE WAY THIS IS WRITTEN TELLS HOW MY METAL HEALTH IS ALONG WITH THE CONTENTS OF THIS POST (JUST HAD TO LET YOU KNOW)

So it's been almost a month since I said I would receive help. and I've stuck to that promise. I've recently been seeing a therapist. and this post is meant to give some incite into what I've developed on and what my therapist has said. anyways, here's that:

When bringing up my hypersexuality and the situation to my therapist, they said that there wasn't anything really that wrong with me. I grew up homeschooled, and quarantine did effect me. I also didn't interact with anyone (even on the internet) so I never really got to know what people were and weren't comfortable with. This isn't a made up update to justify past actions. they actually said that and came up with that, or came to that conclusion or something. I also want to mention something that I've noticed from most people that know me. or don't. on here and IRL

I feel like I'm being treated like I'm disabled for some reason. I also feel unheard, ignored and I feel like a chronic liar. People will legit explain things to me after I gave a shorter explanation of the same thing. They also point out the obvious like, BRO I'M WATCHING THIS GODDAMN MOVIE WITH YOU! STOP EXPLAINING WHAT HAPPENED IN EACH SCENE!!!

I also wanted to talk about my "your probably disabled so I'll treat you like one" people. they tell me what something is or does, despite it being obvious I'm doing it because I know what it is. hey! do You know what's on your shirt? a chicken? it is *drum roll* A CHICKEN!

B**CH ITS SO OBVIOUS ITS A CHICKEN I KNOW WHAT IT IS I GO TO SCHOOL!

everyone I interact with likes to say "uherm acshuilly"

Sorry it just gets to me and makes me feel irrelevant. the amount of times I've been treated like this has made me lose self confidence and tricking my brain into thinking that I'm ACTUALLY STUPID. I started talking less and less. and interacting with people less and less, and I've isolated myself from people. I feel overwhelmed talking to people now and I think of myself as a friendless, loveless creature. I also mess up speaking a lot and can't think in time and my words i use make it bad. like what you just saw! that was a legitimate example. my brain actually stopped there. it's effecting my life and it was caused by not just my friends, but literally everyone else. oh yeah I'm also ignored for some reason. I think it's because I'm ugly. fair enough

My parents treat me like this too so I can't catch a break even if I try. she thinks I don't know how to interact on the internet and not know that CP is illegal. LIKE WTF BRO

Just wanted to give a mental health update. Bye see y'all next time!